The Boy I Left Behind by Garnell Wallace

Author:Garnell Wallace
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: Second Chance Romance Books, African-American Romance books, Black Romance Books, Multicultural and Interracial Romance Books, Caribbean Romance Books, Bahamian Romance novels, small-town romance novels, Forbidden romance novels
Publisher: Midnight Books
Published: 2023-03-28T00:00:00+00:00

I’D PUT MY PAST BEHIND me until Zemi had shown up at my bar. Now here she was in another place I hadn’t expected to see her.

“Where are my babies, Zemi?”

She looked down. “I had them cremated.”

I closed my eyes. Cremation never would’ve been my choice. “So you didn’t even give me a grave I can visit. You listened to your mother and acted as if you had an immaculate conception and didn’t need to take my feelings into account. You said I stressed you out, but your monster of a mother stressed you out a lot more than I did. How could you have gone from loving me to making me feel as if I was nothing? You didn’t even try very hard to convince me that adoption was the best choice because you didn’t care about my feelings. And then you run to Adrian? “

“He was there for me,” she explained softly.

“I didn’t push you away, you ran away from me. You went from love to hate and I wish I could say the same.”

She raised her head and gave me a questioning look.

“It hurts me to say this, Zemi Darling, but I still fucking love you. I want to hate you, God knows I do and every time I try, it still looks like love, not perfect love; it’s the kind of fucked-up love Kirk warned me about. I sold drugs so I could get money to see you. I went to prison because you had me so fucked up.”

She started to say something and I cut her off. “What, I shouldn’t blame you for the choices I made? I can when you blame me for killing my own children.”

“I was in so much pain at the time. I don’t blame you anymore. I know these things happen and it’s no one’s fault. I’m sorry.”

Tears slid down her cheeks and didn’t move me at all. “You were in pain and I was the person you lashed out at? Not your parents, or God, you chose me.” Even at that moment, I couldn’t hate her because I was so twisted inside around the love we’d had that there wasn’t room for anything that opposed it as much as hate. I had to settle for pain.

“I wish I’d never laid eyes on you, and I hope I never see you again.” I got up and walked out of the chapel. The sounds of Zemi’s aching sobs followed me.

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